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It is possible to recover from mental illness

Find someone to trust. People will help

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IT IS POSSIBLE

It is possible to live a good life.

I know you may not think so right now. I know it's hard to even get out of bed sometimes, let alone hold down a job or raise a family, to even take care of yourself. You might even find it hard to look someone in the eye, . . .

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January 29, 2020

About fathers, heroes, love and patience

Heroes don't need to fix things. They support their loved ones in their growth and healing

What I hope for you, maybe the greatest thing that a father can hope for his son, is that one day you will become a father yourself. And then you will know how much I truly love you.

– Henry Allen, to his son, Barry, in an episode of The Flash.

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WHEN I THINK OF BEING A FATHER and everything that means, I also think of being . . .

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January 17, 2020

Forgiveness is a powerful thing

I damaged a friendship beyond repair. Years later something wonderful happened

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This post contains course language, vulgarity and sexual references. Some readers may find certain passages offensive and/or distasteful.

SHE WAS A LOVELY PERSON AND FRIEND. But I had wrecked our friendship.

By no means was it intentional, she was more collateral damage than anything. Caught in the wake of my manic . . .

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January 30, 2019

Living with depression sucks

I wonder why I put myself through the mental wringer

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Editor's Note: Since time of writing, I've developed strategies to set priorities, respectful boundaries, and most of all, be kind to myself. Thank you to my family, friends and workplace for their support.

DEPRESSION TRACKS LIKE A NINJA, quietly plotting his course in the dark; muted footfalls, cagey eyes.

Living with it . . .

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April 19, 2018

Let's talk about mental illness

I'm no longer silent about bipolar disorder

I've blogged about depression, but something always held me back about bipolar disorder. Well, here it goes ...

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In my early twenties, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

I went through bouts of mania where, in no particular order, I trashed my townhouse, ran up large debts, got kicked out of bars, had run-ins with police, . . .

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January 25, 2017

Failing as a teacher was one of my greatest life lessons

In dealing with depression, I have become a better, stronger person

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Teaching grade school and parenting are very similar. Both involve educating children, and both require great patience. My first foray into teaching wasn’t successful, but it helped me become a stronger person and prepared me for eventual parenthood.

In May, 2000, I . . .

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June 09, 2016

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